wah. nakakaiyak. parang i didn't give any effort to study. wah, i am so disappointed. i'm not sure but am i not putting enough effort? i just hate this feeling that i failed to give any effort when in fact, i voluntarily sacrificed the well being of my eyes just to read that stupid book over and over again.
hay. i'm so disappointed. sobra! i suppose i'm being too lenient with regards to my studies!!! ayoko na ng tres. have to study.
what have gone wrong? i've been studying yeah but my concentration's a little offbeat. i study and play at equal time but when i study i'm not "into it". i'm losing my focus. i'm not studying hard enough. so parang nagiging all play na lang lahat. what else?! i tend to be lax, thinking it's nothing but it's really something. going back, it's being too lenient. it's the same problem. mas nag-aaral pa ako nung highschool. tv's not a problem and so as the telephone and the cellphone. i don't even watch tv anymore and i hardly communicate with my highschool friends. i don't even go out frequently, debuts lang or occasional malling. in class? doesn't listen intently. aha! talks with my seatmates often. stop doing that anymore, that's so highschool! i got to be more serious. nerd na kung nerd. concentrate harder, gayahin si naruto. if he will be a hokage, i will be a dean's lister. just got to learn to concentrate. i'm going to start to be hard on myself from now on. if i don't get what i aimed to get, i'm going to get a punishment. a tooth for a tooth and eye for an eye.
on the other hand, i don't think everyone who got a 3 on this subject deserve what they got. some studied a lot harder than i did but we got the same grade.
life's so incomprehensible!
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Two roads divereged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
- Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
